First of all let me tell you that no matter how dark the road ahead may seem, you don’t have to walk it alone, there are people in your life that are ready to help you right now and take you by the hand.
I can emphasize with you, trust me, I have been there, at that moment of disappointment where you just don’t know how to get along. How to make it through the next day.
One day I woke up and really just hated life, I hated the decisions I had made and that another amazing person just didn’t want to have anything to do with me anymore. Why? Because I was an alcoholic. Always smelling, always drunk. And at that point I already had lost my driving license due to DUI’s. Yup that’s the truth and today I can admit that to myself, back then it was a little harder.
Anyway this particular morning I woke up sick of everything so I finally called the hotline for substance abuse. I spoke for 2 hours to the person on the other end of the line, the first real human interaction that I’ve had in a long time, other than the guy at the checkout of my local liquor store of course.
Turns out a chat alone can really help a lot, after that 2 hour call I cleaned up my house, music blaring out of my speakers, getting me pumped up. I threw away all my alcohol, miracle I thought. This is something I’ve never done before, what’s happened.
But as the day went by I started craving it again, I really wanted a beer, and it was hard but I finally got myself to call the hotline again, and yet another 2 hours later I was over the cravings. So I went to bed that night to a very sweaty uncomfortable sleep.
The lady on the phone gave me a place and number for a rehabilitation program where you can go anonymously and take part in group activities. I will tell you right now, this is what helped me improve my life. Being able to enjoy a day again with other people around me, which alone gave me so much strength. For the first time in a long time I felt like I had friends again.
A few stressful weeks later I had hardly touched any alcohol but a few small slipups, but even during those I never drunk a lot of alcohol like I used to. I actually surprised myself in those moments, restrictions where not usually in my vocabulary. And then I started losing weight, it was amazing, all the exercise I was getting with the group and all the fresh air was really doing a magical job on me, not to forget the fact that I wasn’t getting all those calories from the alcohol.
Looking back at my days of addiction I am not sure where I would be today if I hadn’t had this revelation. I am sure I would be hospitalised, imprisoned or dead. Yeah I know that’s quite crass but unfortunately that’s just the way it is, its reality and one day it will hit you really hard.
Oh by the way just to add a cherry on top, im now married to the love of my life and I literally couldn’t be happier. I haven’t had a drop of alcohol in 5 years now which just makes me so happy.
Alcoholism is a Disease and It’s Not Alcohol Abuse
Should you have problems with alcohol addiction, please feel free to tell me about it, and share your problems, I will be here to help you!